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... Still a little strange. Even stranger seeing them all write like that, and wanting to write too. But then I stop myself. I'm not with them anymore, and ... I don't know.

Sometimes I think I'm used to the idea of settling, sometimes I think I'm never gonna get used to it. I just keep thinking of home and how I really failed what I wanted to do in the first place. I don't know what I'm supposed to tell them either. Been a long time since my last letter. Been a long time since they sent anything either. Maybe it was better when we weren't writing at all. Wonder if

And they'll survive, right? I mean... it's not like I really ... they should have turned out okay. Wilas was still there, even if Emilie stopped having anything to really do with them. Us. I'm not much better now, right? But... I probably should send them a little something. When I can.

At least I have a job now. It's probably not really enough to support me yet, but... I'll get there. Right?

I just really don't want to be alo